Sway With Lois: December 2009

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Lost , Heart Lost

Four months life can change one person 's mind? new inspiration ?
If you were living as what have have done in the past , then you would definitely say ,"No!"
But you were in another new environment that you can't expected ,you might not say so .

Had been exposing for four months and hiding again for another 3 months
seems like a year is going to spent just like you never know
You haven't see clearly before you step out to another way

You come back with lots of struggling
you come back with lots of question-air and uncertain while other starting to crash their new life
You keep on saying you "want" , but have you asked If God want you to be ?
You feel nervous, even the youth are brave than you ! They are growing with blessings and with the faithful heart .

When and where you have drop your heart ?
Abba Father , have you saw my heart ? In rubbish bin ? Can you collect it back ?

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

I Feel like want to cry

Crying was my way to express
I had a dream on last two weeks
I can still feel the abandon , loneliness and finally crying in my sleep

I thought I have forgive and forget
I dislike the feeling of stay at darkness and helpless
It's more than dislike ,I could say I feel nervous
I tried to hide ,I tried to let it down

May be I'm too sensitive
Too insane If any of you ignore me
You might think there's nothing If not to reply me

I don't want to be strong
Who want to always stand firm ? Who can ?
I tell myself I don't want ,But I just need to
I'm just a girl

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Christmas - Day for giving thanks

An Article I read recently and is touching .........

This One Is For Jesus

A little girl was given ten bright new pennies as a Christmas gift .
Instantly she began to part with them . "This one is for Jesus , This one is for you , Mom. This one is for you , Dad ,........" -and so on until she had only one penny left .

"And this one is for Jesus," She said again
"But you have already given one to Jesus ," said the mother .
"Yes , Mommy , but that one belonged to Jesus. This one is a present !"

Can we have a heart like the children ? The one belongs to our heavenly daddy is still , but we never think of the giving thanks. Tithes might become an habitual and numbed .

Saturday, December 19, 2009


Less & lesser article recently

Hard & Harder to express

Much & More to hide in my heart

Monday, December 14, 2009

London trip - lonely planet day 3 & 4

Early the Sunday Morning
After Breakfast in the previous hostel , Yippe !
I was moving to YHA !

For the continuing 2 days left in London
I pretty wish the environment was better , no doubt ! it didn't disappointed me :)

Once again to warn you , don't always think that backpack is easy !
On the time , I wished I carried the trolley case with me !
I wish people don't showed me a wrong way ! Since you just can't imagine how silent or fewer people on the road that you can asking for .

The other situation was , even you met people on the road , they might just like you ,
A traveler ! Why I said so ????
I can't show you the exactly official statistics, but I believe more than 70 % citizen or population in London are not British !

The only thing they could help was showing you the map :P
Honestly it did give slightly help sometimes !
Therefore ,don't hesitate to ask for more than one person before you really going to the direction :P ( my own experience !)

I arrived too early and not able to check in yet
But no worried , there was a luggage room for you to stored it .

Don't forget , it was Sunday Morning , I had have an appointment with friend, wei Perng , that I will attend his ' church in Soho , the west end of London which is near by the China town .

I was so touched with what they could have done ,
they could shared gospel in the China town with songs & hand out the Gospel tracts .
Although it needed license application , it was so pleased to see that Chinese Christian willing to shared gospel to all of the Chinese in the world .

Even those foreigners(western people) stopped to have a look , and they might though it was one of the performance in the China town !

I could do nothing on that moment , but I wish my prayers to Lord
can open & touch the hearts !

The previous two days , I have taken underground all my way
suddenly feel like want to took a bus , as well as you have an oyster card with you ,
nothing to worried about .

You will never get lost in London honestly ~

The different angle you could saw from the bus.

Have a stopped at Hyde Park
One of the largest park in London Central

The park is divided into two which are Hyde Park is 142 hectares and
Kensington Gardens is 111 hectares

Hardly imagine , a park which can contained such a huge area ,
and it had been established few hundred years ago.

all around the park , you can see them run here and there ~

Chestnut , food for chipmunk
but not more human :P

Lois Love?
? Love Lois

hahahhahahahha......I saw chipmunks collected chestnut
I collected as well .But unfortunately , it cannot be eat !
Bitter one , I tried it ! I believe the chestnut we ate is different type .

Too relax , people are jogging , dating , picnic - ing, playing games
Just can't against the awesome environment , I almost fallen in sleep with the nice wind blew .

My 3rd days in London End with went back to cook my dinner at YHA and take a rest after another shop in Leicester square - near by China Town .

3rd day ~

I had a sweet dream last night ! Woke up with satisfaction ~Care nothing , and walked myself to basement kitchen with messy look seems like my own home ( No one know me :P)

My London trip brought me some thought ,
4 days didn't mean anything , the thought might have gathered from the past 14 days in Europe adding with the other 4 days in London . I had no much time to think on the past 14 days since no silent time and lonely time , it was always accompanied with huge group of people.

When I laid on the bed in hostel , and walked on the stranger streets , met up with strangers.
Carried nothing , beside about £ 100++ on my pocket + one passport +a mobile +a heavy backpack which mostly was my clothes , those were all I had as my properties on that time .
A sudden thought came into my mind ,

"Meaningless! Meaningless!"
says the Teacher.
"Utterly meaningless!
Everything is meaningless."

Vanity of vanities, saith the Preacher, vanity of vanities; all is

Ecclesiastes 1:2

What was left with me if I died now? were all those "properties " important ( No deny , as a human being , those are still important , if not I will be treated as illegal , aren't I ) ? What about all I have hold so tight and crashing for so long , are they all important for me anymore?

What about all those little things in my room ? Do I need all those to survive?
I can't answer myself , I just knew that I born with nothing and will died with nothing I can hold!

Early morning on Monday
Not many visitors and sudden felt like want to have a walked to Tower Bridge again .

The day view is as lovely as the night view ~

My friend recommended me the Natural Museum at Cromwell.
My target in this London trip , all the free entrance places was my target ...haha

A huge museum which you could spent few hours to visited ~

Kaki ayam ~! No it is not ! But It made me thought of the
“Peanut Chicken claw soup " 花生鸡脚汤

I'm not fancy on the chicken claw cuisine but my family do :P

Polar bear
I have read some news about the Polar bear ate the little polar due to not enough food
and some grey colour Polar bear are born .

I love the food in China town
Although the price was slightly high , with tax and Chinese tea
£ 7++ , but I have been save up for so long on all my trips .

My 4 beds dorm in YHA with toilet
clean and lovely ~
All my roomates were gone when I went back on evening time .

Kitchen & Cabinet& Fridge that you can store your food

Just need to write your name on the striker and label on your food
No worry , no people will going to steal your food ~

Food that were left out by previous tenant , feel free to use it ~

There are 2 kitchen full with all the equipments which is well prepare ~

The 4th days morning , I woke up a bit late since I have to check out and went back to Sheffield by Megabus , the megabus service was good , I can't demand more with £3 fare . But I really have nothing to complaint with .

Wednesday, December 09, 2009

London trip - lonely planet day 1& 2

My London trip had planned for long although I have to make it alone .
Because of a funny reason make me decided to ..........how come a person went to United Kingdom but never been to London ?
The second reason - I want to visit London Tower Bridge & Big Ben ! LOL
See ! Malaysia 's kids have big affected by the traditional nursery rhyme , London Bridge is falling down ( I'm one of them , who want to see how's the Bridge could be falling ...lol)

Honestly It was damn tired rushing back from Paris and directly drop to London city .
Therefore , the first night I slept very early in the Friday night in London city while everyone was started to dress up& make up and preparing going to pubs .

The bus back from Europe trip dropped some of us at Victoria coach station , there all mates separated up . And I went alone to Gloucester station , where the backpack hostel I had booked long ago .
On the moment , I was deeply regret to carried the heavily bag with me , but I have no choice , can you imagine overall 20 days trips , 10++ kg was not too over . ( And I had bought some little souvenirs from 9 countries :P.......I could swear , just a very very little one )

The only little complaint about the underground (Tube) is , there are always no escalator and long long underpass before you can reach to the platform ! Gosh ~ it was killing me if I carried my backpack. And the other trouble for the "first timer" on taking tube , you would be very confuse with all the lines , can you imagine there are 13 lines !

I arrived the Astro Kensington hostel at around 5pm with hungry and tiring body . I totally not recommended this hostel . But What can I do in the Friday night , mostly hostels are full & the rate is much higher than the weekday :P

I knew I could stand on it , since there are many more worst hostel in the world . As well as it 's safe , then 2 days were not a big problem ! I stayed at mix dorm , honestly , I worried ! Thanks God , although it was mix dorm , all are female ! Sainbury market was just 3 minutes walk , kitchen was free to used ...........................Yippe , finally I came back to UK , I cooked for myself , shower and sleep well .

pack , pack , pack ,pack .....plan , plan ,plan ,plan .......................

Early morning , after the breakfast , my very first day in London Begin .

I had no worried about the transport fees , since I was using Osyter Card which borrowed from Glen . The daily ticket costs about £8.60 , depend on how wide the zone you 're going to .
One important thing you need to take note is , some of the lines would be closed or closed earlier .

First stop - Westminster Abbey

The wind blew toward on me while I walked to the direction of underground .

A awesome weather in the morning , not too warm nor cold
But still you need to prepare the jacket or scarf......
since you can't predict the weather , especially at night time

The day was still early , not many visitor yet
I still can enjoy some peaceful silent morning in this city .

Big Ben , is just opposite the westmister abbey .
As well as the Thames River and London eyes
You just need to stopped at Westminster tube station , then visit all these places .

Big Ben ben ben Ben ......lalalalala
I'm happy to see it and walked along the Thames river

Can't get close and take photo
since the Box on the floor had wroten a notice that prohibit to unless you pay :P

Last night was too late to call back home
Therefore , in the early morning ( UK time) , sitting on the riverside
and made a call back to Malaysia .

Hello! Hello ! Hello !!........worst line connection .
I forced to increase my voice , Please forgive me , I saw the family sat next to me looking at me !
oh.......shame shame , not me want to reacted rude , the line was bad !

Eyes on me ...hmmmm

Hmmm.....No la ...... , I mean "London eye"

Thames River

I like to read Sherlock Holmes novel since I was kid
, He always mention the Thames river

What So special to drive a car ?
we are on the ride of horse :P...lol

The Royal Guard started at 1230 pm

I have been spending an hour and waiting for the parade.

A park hiding in the silent corner .

Too Crowded in the Buckingham Palace

Horse Guard

My lunch that Bought at at Tesco
and have it outside the National Gallery London

Green balloon ? There was a Arabic Event held on that day.

Hardly to imagine , why London's platform are so narrow~

Here it is China Town in London
I have an appointment with a friend here who is staying in London .

Yummy ! Yummy Dinner
Fried beef Ho - but it seems like whole plate is full with beef, isn't it ?

Tower Bridge

Wei Perng , a church mate from Malaysia and working in London now
Thank you for the treated me the dinner !

Luckily I was there to visited at night time with his greatly recommended
It 's beautiful!

London Bridge , the red colour one

I was lost in the way back to hostel alone, hahahha
Not too far from it , I was in the right area but another road and direction .
I did wonder the views was slightly different from the morning I had seen ! Thank for God 's guidance , I felt safe to walked in the silent road .

Luckily , arrived safely and prepare heart for tomorrow Sunday worship at Soho London.

I was going to MoVE to another hostel Tomorrow morning ! YHA London Central ~