it's Just Not me

5 months gone . Another Stage , I try to hide myself.

No explore , no news , no sharing .No words.

I just don't know what I have done .

I totally lost .

 Somewhere I can't find the true me .


.........................unfortunately I care What people talking me..............................................

I afraid of denying . I afraid of get lose .

And

I denying myself . I lost my identity .

In the present  , Lois is no longer  the Lois you know who I was anymore.
The Protective wall has been built up and push down , rebuild and push ...and rebuild.
How many time I need to repeat these way?