Sway With Lois: March 2006

Sunday, March 26, 2006


Lonely , I feel lonely, I got nobody .................

I have refused to attend the church's fellowship this few weeks , I don't have willing to go . I couldn't felt homey when i went there , what my feeling is lonely , stress , depress and upset.

I always been teased when I was youth , I hurted a lots. I couldn't faced people . I felt diffident , guilty and sad. My social Life is really awful , I don't have much "friends". "Friends" ? YUp .....we can have lots of friends ....but not intimate .

I always meditate , am I thinking too much ? Am I too sensitive ? I even more believe some of my net friends than my real life's friends ( Include brothers & sisters in Chrisrt) . People who met me now will never thought I am weak . Appearance is so strong , spirit is so weak.

I have done a lots to make me strong , I learn more to stand tough. I learn a lots to cope my poor, I have tried a lots to force myselves growing . Notwithstanding , what I have done really help me growing and stand tough in people 's eyes , I still feel lonly and hurt , very damage.

Hurt will never be forget but it could be forgive ! Unluckly , these really arduous . I always choose the wrong ways , I prefer to evade ! I don't want to facing it . I even don't willing to met and talk to the people who had hurt me . Hurt isn't easy to be cure , it needs time and love .

I am not going to say , all is people's fault . I am doing at fault too. I am always stubborn , I can't accept the opinion beside myselves .

As a result , what I have done make me feel lonely ~

1 Corinthians 13:4-7 "

Love is patient, love is kind.

It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

It is not ru de, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."

Friday, March 24, 2006


When the sun first appears
in the morning

When the sun disappears
and the night begins

The Dark Part of each 24-hour period