This is most free week for me to read and dreaming .
I 've recalled back some memories which happened between 2005 ~2009.
I reviewing some photo and purposely visited some friend's facebook pages .
It bring me back to recall the guy who I was secret crush to ( anyway , He is blessed with a very good gf now ). I just can't remember what made me so crazy into him .I just can remember his lame face ... :)
It happend accidently I met him and I was the first ignored how had we met .
Throught net , we've became friend ,with my broken (yet broke) English , thank you for his tolerance ..haha
I still remember one of our friens,A ,asked me why I didn't farewell him and sent him to airport .And She asked me if I love this guy ? The most silly and fool answer quickly came out from my mouth , NO!
I didn't know why was I denying .
Because of shy ? Because of lack of faith & confident ? Because of Inferiority ?Because my Love to him is not great enough compare to my own ? or I was too confident he would be back to me .
Yup. All was the asnwer that made me to deny .
If I could lived again, I would just admit , no matter what would be the consequences . ( Ha Ha !)
2009 - UK trip was the Turning Point in my life.
I can't say this turn to be better , because yet I can't see the great result .
From then , a lots of happiness was taken away from my life . As well as memories !
It was out of my control , since then I can't speak well and I've lost many of my memories .
I am totally lost my confident to stand infront of stage or infront of people.
Recently , some memories like power point slice flicking in my head .I saw some of my friends, officers and some events ~ the corners of mine mouth curved up!