Sometimes while I thought to hold somethings tight
I never ask if God want me to hold it .

While I read the Bible about the Israelite complaint in the dessert
and God punished them to lived in the dessert for 40 years journey
I 'd wonder why they were so stubborn and little faith on God .

On the other hand , while I looking on myself , I might just like any of them that keep on complaint and not following God's willingness. 40 Years is not a long time , it's really not !